I’m finally entering the third trimester, and while time has flown by, it also feels like having this baby is a lifetime away. My blogging has been sub-par lately, but I have to be honest – this whole being pregnant thing is exhausting. I’d argue is more mentally draining than physically draining. This blog post is more for me than for you, but I need to write out all these thoughts in my head about how I’m feeling about my pregnancy so far:
1. “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times” (Yes, I am quoting “A Tale of Two Cities” by Charles Dickens.)
Overall, I honestly can’t complain. Other than the typical pains of growing a human inside of you (trouble sleeping, soreness in my stomach & tenderness in my tailbone), this little guy hasn’t been too big of any issue. We’re blessed that, as far as we know, he is healthy & growing like he should and that’s all we can ask for. These past two weeks have been the hardest. I didn’t feel pregnant for the first 20 weeks. Then I popped. And then I EXPLODED. Weight wise, nothing dramatic, appearance wise…oh man. My entire body feels stretched out to the max and I keep feeling intimidated with how the last trimester will feel since I know I still have a long way to go! On my “bad days”, I try to keep it all in perspective: this is worth it.
2. “Dressing the bump” isn’t for me…
I love seeing all the bloggers and my friends who LOVE maternity fashion. For me, I still struggle with it. On the one hand, it’s expensive. While some of my pre-baby clothes still fit, I’m not about to stretch them all out & ruin them! But buying a whole new wardrobe to get me through the next 3 months?? Ugh, a dagger to my bank account. It’s not that I mind the choices. Target, Old Navy, H&M all have affordable, stylish options out there. It just adds up fast.
You know the feeling you get trying on bathing suits in February?? That, oh man I wish I was tanner/skinnier/this lighting was better/why am I going on vacation again feeling??? Yeah, that’s like maternity clothes shopping. But today, I’m going to have a better attitude. I am going shopping! And if I come home with even 3 new items, I will be happy!!
3. It’s a perfect time to bond with your husband
I was a little nervous how hormonal I’d be, and thankfully, I haven’t been too emotional about anything (other than Grey’s Anatomy…I mean, I cried uncontrollably…). Kyle has been the “model husband” both encouraging me through the tough times, and making me laugh & smile every day. He’s been to every appointment, allows me my indulgences, and overall we’ve grown closer together as we anticipate our new future. With our recent move, he basically did it all (thanks to our parents for helping!). My hope for others going through pregnancy is that they have the support & love of a husband to get them through those long 9 (10 let’s be real..) months.
4. Food is a struggle
This isn’t a weight comment. Quite honestly, I’m in the camp that you want to gain what you need to gain. For everyone it’s different. It shouldn’t be about the number on the scale, it’s about WHAT you eat. Just like every day life. But that’s the struggle. I try SOO hard to eat well, but it’s easier said than done. I haven’t had any REAL cravings (other than a 7AM run to Walmart for crispy BBQ chips), but snack foods have been my vice. I know this last trimester is a crucial time to watch what I eat in terms of nutritional value for the baby, and so I’m working on planning my days better. This weekend is a the final farewell with a last hurrah of sorts. We are going to NYC tomorrow, and I plan to overindulge one final time until this baby comes! To be honest, this food struggle existed pre-baby, but didn’t seem to matter as much until you realize you’re responsible for someone else’s health & well being, too.
5. This is such an honor.
At the end of the day, I am honored I get to bring a life into this world. Despite the ups & downs of typical pregnancy woes, I can’t believe how lucky we are to have a child. I know not everyone gets this privilege. To complain seems like an insult to everyone struggling to get pregnant. I am trying to keep perspective & cherish this time instead of wishing it away. There are more good days than bad. There is more excitement than sorrow. There is more hope than fear. I am very ready to enjoy this last trimester & welcome our little guy in August!